I was kind of thinking a bit today. And I guess it finally occurred to me that I’m not really sure who I am, what I want. I mean.. I’m not really good at anything! I can’t do sports, I can’t draw, and I’m not especially smart at anything. I have little to no hobbies, haha. There’s nothing that sets me apart, but at the same time, there’s nothing that helps me relate to people, either.
I don’t watch anime. I’m not a great gamer. I don’t go out, and I’m not pretty enough to run around taking selfies and getting to know other girls. I don’t have the money for clothing or to go out.
I don’t have a lot of friends. I know people, but that’s nothing like having friends that I can talk to. I’ve drifted away from people I’ve been around almost all my life.. and they don’t seem to care.
I don’t read Game of Thrones. I don’t read the Hunger Games, watch Doctor Who, Sherlock Holmes, or like the Fault in our Stars. I don’t have much to talk about most of the time. To make it short, I’m boring.
Sometimes I wonder what the heck I’m doing.
But there a lot of things I want to see and experience.
I wanna see the world.. experience high school. The excitement of going to my first homecoming, my first toga, my first sadies. As much of an awkward kid I am, I think a lot of people always think of little things like that. As boring as dances are, it’s always the thought of seeing something new, you know? I guess I just need some excitement in my life.
Maybe it’s time for me to stir some up.